梅森退休后采访 暴雪泰坦项目摧毁了自己

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"Leaving Blizzard was an incredibly difficult thing. I'd been there since, essentially, I was a kid. I think I was 19 when I got hired and it was my whole life, it was my identity. And it was in many ways, all-consuming. It was just incredible, but there can be a cost sometimes to running that hard."

As expected, developing Titan and then transforming it into Overwatch was extremely difficult and took its toll.

"I think during those years I burned out really hard. I think in my heart, I needed a change in my life. I wanted to slow down, I wanted to just not carry the weight of it all. But when you've been at a company like Blizzard for as long as I have, I think about Shawshank Redemption: I'm an institutional man now. I'm a Blizzard guy, through and through. I love that place. I love the people. It made me feel schizophrenic."

"I started having panic attacks left and right and just non-stop anxiety. Before I finally retired, I think I had been having panic attacks all the time, but I didn't know what they were. Kat and I would go on dates to go to a movie and almost all the time, I would start panicking in the middle of a movie. I had no idea what was going on."

当克里斯·梅森宣布退休的时候真的是让我们都非常震惊，而且他不只是从暴雪离开而是不再从事游戏研发了。现在Scott Johnson和克里斯·梅森有了一次访谈，克里斯聊到了他做这个决定背后的理由。

“离开暴雪真的是一个非常困难的决定。我已经在那待着有，基本上，从我是个孩子开始就待在那儿了。我想当我被雇佣的时候我才19岁然后这就成了我的一生，这就是我的身份!而且从很多方面的(归属感)是非常强烈的。这是很惊人的，但有时会很难承担这些。”

正如大家所指的的，开发泰坦项目然后把它分解成守望先锋真的是件非常困难的事情，并且损耗了克里斯·梅森太多(注：精力)。

“我想在那些年我真的精疲力尽了。我想在我心里，我渴望生命中有点变化。我想要放慢一点，我只是不想要再负担这么多了。但是当你在一个像暴雪一样的公司就像我一样时，我想起肖生克的救赎的一句话：我现在是一个被制度化的人。我是个完完全全彻彻底底的暴雪人。我爱这个地方，我爱这里的人。这让我感觉像是精神分裂了一样。”

“我开始恐慌被左边和右边攻击，还有从未停止的焦虑。在我退休之前，我觉得我已经所有时间都在恐慌被别人攻击了，但是我根本不知道谁会攻击我。Kat和我有时候会约会去看电影，然后我在电影播到一半的时候我开始恐慌。我不知道之后会怎么样……”